1 week down

It is memorial day today and I wish the weather was better. Not going to lie, kind of sick of all this rain and cold. I did get to catch Bridesmaids and Hangover II this weekend which were both super funny! Highly recommend both of them!

I am a week out from IUI today. Everything went well (as it has in the past) and I got a massage and had lunch at bennihana afterwards so that was a nice treat. I am trying to stay positive, but not get my hopes up. I do still have two more rounds if this try does not work and then on to invitro. Brian's friends came over this weekend and they brought their baby Isabelle. She was so cute and has gotten so big. She is about year and crawling everywhere!!! She loved the dog too! A very happy baby! There has been a lot of friends on facebook that have recently had babies and I am very happy for them! Off to get more laundry done!

Hopeful

I never blogged after my baseline U/S. I was very nervous and not sure what to expect. When I went in, it showed that I still have a cyst on my left side, but it was slightly smaller and "more solid." The nurse at the time couldn't tell me if that would cause me to wait another month and sent with birth control and the directions that they would call later after they talked to the doctor (he was in N.Dakota helping patients). I cried and called Brian. For most people, another month of birth control is no big deal, I was bummed. It would mean another month of waiting, but it wasn't the end of the world. However, I just want a baby and I have wanted a baby for several years -whether we waited due to Brian being laid off and then infertility, it has been awhile. It is hard when you are trying for baby to be put on birth control because at that point, there is NO chance that month you can get pregnant. All my worrying was relieved a couple of hours later when I got the call that the plan was to "go ahead with treatment this cycle." SO HAPPY!

Yesterday I had my U/S to check and see if I made any follicles. I did! I feel very hopeful!!! I was worried they would have to come in Sunday (they are on-call) and the nurse looked at me in the eye and said "If I was trying to get pregnant, I would want someone to do that for me. I am on-call this weekend and I don't mind at all so don't worry about it." It almost made me cry. They are SOOOOOO nice there it is unbelievable! I will do IUI on Monday and have a massage scheduled for afterwards that I am really looking forward to!

Waiting

So, riddle me this, how is it that every month I hope NOT to get my period, but this month I can't WAIT? HAHAH. Just finishing up my birth control which means once I get my period I can have an ultrasound to see how my cyst is doing and then HOPEFULLY restart this whole process. I hope all those moms out there had a wonderful mother's day. Not going to lie, felt a little broken reading this post on a lot of peoples FB status'

"I've carried a child within my body. Slept with a baby on my chest. I've kissed boo boos and mended broken hearts. I've been puked on, peed on, pooped on and spent sleepless nights in a rocking chair, but I wouldn't have it any other way. My body isn't magazine perfect, but when I look in the mirror I see a MOM, and there is no greater honor or blessing!!"

It is a very beautiful quote, I just wish I could say it....well, I guess I can say that I have been puked on, pooped on, and peed on and my body isn't magazine perfect. On a more positive note, I had a great time enjoying wine and drinks at Em's bachelorette party!!! Looking forward to doing some gardening on this wonderful, sunny day!!!!!